What do you think I should do??? I’m catching feelings for my friend’s ex. My name is Bukar and my Friend’s name is Jawwad. We met in our first year in BUK. I was reading alone, getting ready for a test. Jawwad then walked up to me and asked for my opinion regarding a question he was solving.
Jawwad is a jovial guy unlike me, an introvert that finds it difficult to connect with people. I told him my own opinion and he was excited about it. Jawwad keeps running his mouth and I began to get irritated by it. So I excuse myself trying to avoid further discussion. Jawwad asked for my contact and we part ways. Not after he promised to call if he encounters any difficulties with the course.
In no time, our friendship blossoms. We share almost everything together.
We became inseparable and people started calling us names. But one thing I
noticed about Jawwad is his ability to lie about his whereabouts when he is
with a lady. I caught him numerous times but we just laugh about it. I’m
also not perfect and I have my shortcomings too.
In our second year, Jawwad hooks a big cute fish. A DE student. Her name is
Feenah. Feenah is cute, smart, intelligent, and friendly. But she is kind of
short. Before I resumed, Jawwad already paraded the campus with Feenah.
Even though he claims that it’s just a friendly gesture and nothing is going
on between them. After I resumed, Jawwad continued to be with Feenah.
They study together and go home together. I was nowhere in the equation
anymore. But we do catch up sometimes. Feenah is friendly but we don’t
vibe because of my unfriendly attitude. We study together sometimes.
Feenah got my contact from Jawwad and we started chatting together. She
complained of my unfriendly behavior and I apologized. On chat, I’m a
superman. I can chat non-stop with a lady. And that is exactly what
happened between me and Feenah. We talked about everything like we’ve
known each other for a long time.
Fast forwarded, Jawwad started dating Feenah officially after denying it for
long. Few months into their lovey lovey, Feenah started complaining about
Jawwad. You know, just like the way it happens in movies. There is always
something that will come up. As Jawwad’s friend, I always assured Feenah that everything will be fine. And one thing i know about Jawwad is he cares
for her. And she’ll also agree to that and find a way to cope with the little
unnecessary things.
My mistake was the long chats. I continued chatting with Feenah. I thought
we are living in the UK where it doesn’t matter if you hang out with your
friends gf or chat. Jawwad started acting weird towards me. Then Feenah
started telling me all the negative things Jawwad use to tell her about me. I
ignored everything and told her that he doesn’t mean any of them. And I
never talked about it with Jawwad. I knew then that something was wrong.
This continues and I decided to talk to Jawwad.
I approached him playfully and he told me that he doesn’t like the way I
chat with his girl. When he’s with her she’ll be chatting with me and not
paying attention to him. At that moment, I understood that my guy was
jealous. I assured Jawwad that I have nothing to do with his girl and I
blocked her number in his presence. I simply cut all kinds of communication with her and avoided her like plague.
One day, I received a call from Jawwad telling me that his girl wants us to
reconcile. Even-though I don’t know what this is all about, I just played
along(Bro code). But after the reconciliation, I didn’t unblock her. Jawwad
now gave her the private line that I share with people closest to me. I was
mad at him. But he apologized. It left me no choice but to unblock her and
block her via my private line.
In no time, our non-stop chat continues. Not because I want it to, but
because it’s always about Jawwad messing up. Then I end up covering for
him. Lies cannot be hidden forever. She eventually caught us and dumped
his ass (Jawwad). As for me, I’m harmless. I’m just any guy that wants to
help his friend. As usual, I tried mending things between them but it didn’t
work. We continued chatting as classmates, friends, I’m not sure of that.
One day, we were chatting, as usual, then Feenah dropped the bomb. She
told me that she liked me the very first day she saw me.
She told Jawwad about it and he told her to forget about me that I liked someone else. He’s actually right. But if I were him, I won’t date someone that told me she has feelings for my friend. The problem now is, I noticed how attractive Feenah is, how amazing she is, and I think I’m falling for her.
I think I like my friends’ ex. What should I do now???
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